"You'll be fine!" "You'll do great." "Don't worry about it, everyone passess."
Turns out fretting about comprehensive exams with colleagues and professors is remarkably unproductive. Everyone is so damn supportive. But the truth is, I really feel like I'm going to fail. And the reality is, if I do, it's my own damn fault. I've been studying, of course, but I don't feel like it's nearly enough. After all, I've been sleeping normal amounts and still having something of a life. Not to mention I've kept up with my little addiction called the internets. Will I be the first grad student to fail comps because of Twitter? (Oh, the horror.) Let's hope not.
With two weeks out from my in-house day (see here for an explanation of what I'm talking about), I'm going to take a leaf from my sister's book and shun* social media until my exams are done. I'm turning over my accounts to Mr. T, asking him to temporarily change the passwords, and I'm going to study, hardcore. I recognize that I may love this new social media-free lifestyle** and never come back, but it's a risk I'm willing to take to avoid the stunning embarassment of failure. Sigh.
In my next life, I'm going to come back with self-control and a procrastination shield!
xoxo,
shawna
* Dear ones, this means I'm going to be shunning you, too. Forgive me if I don't return calls, turn down social invites, ignore your emails, etc. I'll catch up with you after September 22!
** Who am I kidding?
P/S In my "Operation Kick Comps Ass" post, I felt so optimistic about using the blog to study. Only, it just felt like another form of procrastination and I clearly wasn't very good about it. Ah well, I'll bore with you academic junk another time!Labels: challenging things, Mr. T, Operation Kick Ass Comps, social media, Things that scare me
